My eyes hurt intensely.
For a while I was thinking that I don't have senioritis... yea I totally do. Not that I've stopped doing any of my work or anything, I just feel like school wastes so much of my life. Like nearly half of my life it feels will be devoted to school if I keep going at the rate I'm going. Personally, I don't like the sound of that. It would only be okay if I could make good money while going to school but I don't like the sound of people talking about those "starving college kids". Like, why do I have to starve for my education?
Also, everyone instills this idea in your head when you're young that if you don't keep going to school after high school and if you don't get a career and get married and have kids that you'll either be a failure or you'll regret it. This pisses me off because that doesn't sound like it will make me happy. I no longer have the desire to have a career. I just want to have fun in my life. Life's too short to devote myself to a career that I see no value in. I just don't want to work my whole life doing something where I'm helping a bunch of worthless people who can't even help themselves. This doesn't go without saying that yes, some of the people I help will have worth, but I just don't think I have the capability to be that devoted. The only thing I've ever devoted myself to is school. That's why I have no service hours or extracurricular activities.
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