Comic Books, Antiques, Paper Heart

Today I got to spend time with a few of my favorite friends. I woke up next to Marina, and Vicky was asleep on the floor. After all of us hustling and bustling about while dressing and washing up, Marina and Vicky both got picked up, and Heidi and Jenny came to get me! We went to a comic book store which was insanely amazing! There were really hot girl action figures and REAL LIFE NERDS (Oh... wait. I'm a nerd... ^^;;;)! It smelled really good inside and I loved the giant red Hulk thing. We proceeded to exit the store and walk a ways down the side walk, and we came upon an antique shop. I certainly wasn't expecting anything so phenomenal! There were so many interesting ancient artifacts and random statuettes and sofas. Jenny even discovered an old Richard Scarrey book! I was elated! We were inside for a good hour just completely baffled by the sheer quantity of packed items, trying to carefully navigate our way through the maze of tables, chairs, and scary life-sized Indian dolls was probably the most time consuming part of our adventure. There was so much dust that Heidi nearly hacked up a hairball! Silly Heidi. We went to another antique store afterward, but it wasn't nearly as interesting. When we got back to la casa de Heidi y Jenny, Heidi and I watched Paper Heart (co-starring Michael Cera who is so extremely cute that I could die) and I wanted to punch the ugly girl who he kissed. Overall it was a touching movie, and made its way onto my list of semi-favorites (which is a tough title to hold). We ate yummy foods, and then Heidi took me home at around 6 something.

It would have been a perfect day if I would have been able to see Zoreo and Katie, too.

Yay! I finally took the time to post again!
Good Nite :3

My Mom

She's great. Even though she's forgetful and irresponsible sometimes, I have to admit I'm lucky. She's so open minded and trusting. I have more freedom than probably 80% of kids (and by freedom I mean I ask and still get to do stuff). Sometimes I think she's just carefree... but I realized today she's petrified of me going places alone or anything. She told me how she's extremely scared of me going off to college and how she constantly thinks about it. She even wants us to go to the gun range, get guns, tazers, and take self defense classes. She had been convincing me to join the military for a while but I learned today that was 90% because she knows I'll be safe for the most part (because I'm so smart I wouldn't be shipped out to do some insane undercover bomb operation or something). I just love her. I know I snap at her, and her drinking and smoking are the things I will never accept about her, but I truly adore my mom.

I just wish there was a was I could tell her how much without feeling like a dork...

:)

I am so incredibly angry right now

Ok, so basically, Vicky goes to school with a bunch of fucking 5 year olds. She likes to talk shit, and a lot of shit. We both do it, it's fun and entertaining. We don't care if people like it or not, we just do it because we can. ALSO we watch porn. BIG DEAL. It doesn't matter. And yes, she talks about porn a little bit at her school, rarely.

One of those little retards decided it was okay to go and write a letter to her mom saying all this, and that she needs help. WHAT THE HELL. Who are you to decide what's right and wrong in someone's life!? Now her mom thinks she's some porn freak. What an idiot I swear to God I cannot hang out with these children anymore that's it. They're fun and all but they desperately need a reality check, they've been living in their Catholic School bubble for tooo fucking lonnngg. When they get into High School they're in for a surprise because no one gives a fuck about what you do. You can fucking give blowjobs in the bathroom and your parents are most likely not going to find out unless someone tells a teacher.

I'm so enraged. You mess with my best friend, you mess with me. If I ever find out who did this I'm going to tell them exactly what it is I think of them. I don't care if I get in trouble or not this is BS.

Shit.

I am in severe need of inspiration. I have lost all desire to attend/apply for college. I simply want a job and money. Sounds easy, immature, overly ambitious and ridiculous, right?

I honestly feel it's lack of inspiration. Also, I have this fear of not going to school since that's what everyone expects of me. Maybe I should take a year off, I wouldn't want to go into college feeling like, "Oh great, more school. I'll just force myself to do the work because I have to." That's not what college is about and I know it. If I don't want to be there, then why go? My family will be quick to show their doubts and disappointments in me, but as long as I can be happy, I don't mind.

This is what I want:

job
simple car
live with someone I know (either Ali, Vicky, Imena, or Mary)
fun

Not very ambitious, but I don't care. I'm dying for freedom that only comes with income.


......Okay. It's official. I've lost it.

My mom just came into my room, so I decided to talk to her about my problems for a little while. I basically started bawling because I'm concerned about how I'm going to pay taxes. Honestly, I fret about this all the time. Taxes scare me. Then I almost cried again because I'm worried about bills. How do you pay bills??!?!?! (Thankfully, my mom explained this process to me.)

HOLY CRAP I'M LOSING IT. I totally feel like I'm going to cry again. The world is so scary I don't know what to do. I don't want a career, I don't want to go to college, I just want a job and a place to stay and a car. Seriously I'm crazy.

Mes Yeuxxxxxx

My Eyesssss are soooo sore. Still.

I went to see Mr. Sanzone today about Skills USA and frankly, I'm certain that I am the official Skills USA Secretary without opposition or competition (no one else tried to sign up for the position). I'm excited because now I have to dedicate myself to something which I've never really done before. This and debate team (which I spent the past 2 hours preparing for, it was fun). I'm learning so much this year. I'm ecstatic about the future because I know that no matter what I'll be okay. Whether I go to college or whatever... life will be good. As long as I have these ("few") things, I'll be great:

Sex
Friends
Books
Clothes
Water
Food
The ability to get to Tampa
Bug-free living facility
Comfortable, quiet, dark, cold sleeping arrangement
Chapstick
Make-up
Lotion
Hair scrunchies
Ali
Music
Internet access


Not too much to ask for (yea right). I probably left some stuff out...

The Girl With Kaleidescope Eyes

My eyes hurt intensely.

For a while I was thinking that I don't have senioritis... yea I totally do. Not that I've stopped doing any of my work or anything, I just feel like school wastes so much of my life. Like nearly half of my life it feels will be devoted to school if I keep going at the rate I'm going. Personally, I don't like the sound of that. It would only be okay if I could make good money while going to school but I don't like the sound of people talking about those "starving college kids". Like, why do I have to starve for my education?

Also, everyone instills this idea in your head when you're young that if you don't keep going to school after high school and if you don't get a career and get married and have kids that you'll either be a failure or you'll regret it. This pisses me off because that doesn't sound like it will make me happy. I no longer have the desire to have a career. I just want to have fun in my life. Life's too short to devote myself to a career that I see no value in. I just don't want to work my whole life doing something where I'm helping a bunch of worthless people who can't even help themselves. This doesn't go without saying that yes, some of the people I help will have worth, but I just don't think I have the capability to be that devoted. The only thing I've ever devoted myself to is school. That's why I have no service hours or extracurricular activities.

Lame, I know

I hate to post more than a blog a day but this is just so interesting.
Some of these questions are lame and dumb but the others are GENIUS questions:

1. Why does the sun lighten our hair, but darken our skin?

2. Why can't women put on mascara with their mouth closed?

3. Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?

4. Why don't you ever see the headline Psychic Wins Lottery?

5. Why is abbreviated such a long word?

6. Why is a boxing ring square?

7. Why is it considered necessary to nail down the lid of a coffin?

8. Why is it that doctors call what they do practice?

9. Why is it that rain drops but snow falls?

10. Why is it that to stop Windows 98, you have to click on Start?

11. Why is it that when you're driving and looking for an address, you turn down the volume on the radio?

12. Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor and dish washing liquid made with real lemons?

13. Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

14. Why is the third hand on the watch called a second hand?

15. Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

16. Why isn't there a special name for the tops of your feet?

17. Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

18. If you throw a cat out of the car window, does it become kitty litter?

19. If you take an Asian person and spin him around several times does he become disoriented?

20. Is it OK to use the AM radio after noon?

21. What do people in China call their good plates?

22. What do you call a male ladybug?

23. What hair color do they put on the driver's license of a bald man?

24. Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

25. Why do they call it a pair of pants, but only 1 bra?

26. Why is it called tourist season if we can't shoot at them?

27. Why do you need a driver's license to buy liquor when you can't drink and drive?

28. Why isn't phonetic spelled the way it sounds?

29. Why are there Interstates in Hawaii?

30. Why are there flotation devices in the seats of planes instead of parachutes?

31. Why are cigarettes sold at gas stations where smoking is prohibited?

32. Have you ever imagined a world without hypothetical situations?

33. How does the guy who drives the snowplow get to work?

34. If the 7-11 is open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, why does it have locks on the door?

35. You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of it?

36. If a firefighter fights fire and a crime fighter fights crime, what does a freedom fighter fight?

37. If they squeeze olives to get olive oil, how do they get baby oil?

38. If a cow laughs, does milk come out of her nose?

39. If you are driving at the speed of light and you turn your headlights on, what happens?

40. Why do they put Braille dots on the keypad of a drive-up ATM?

41. Why is it that when you transport something by car it is called shipment, but when you transport something by ship it's called cargo?

42. Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

43. Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

44. If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

45. If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal